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Author: wsxcde
Word count: 23969
1.
At any time, I have never denied the fact that I am a pervert. This point was further confirmed when I personally confessed to Deng Yanan. Fortunately, there were no acquaintances around me at the time, otherwise I might have been sent to the hospital for treatment, maybe a psychiatric department—it’s not surprising, I was thinking about whether to go to the emergency department the night before.
“However,” I thought, “the existence of such a person can be accepted as a sick thing.” Although as a sick person, it is really unfair for me to make such a judgment, but, according to common sense, this is absolutely unacceptable—— according to common sense. During the three years of junior high school, in the constant self-examination and observation of her, my understanding of the word “abnormal” has been sublimated, or I no longer just look at it from the surface. Of course, it’s not the essence. What I have to say is that I have distorted my understanding of it with subjective thoughts.
Hahaha! I patted my forehead, thinking about it is really ridiculous. Is the result of my continuous reflection and understanding for so many years just like this? It is estimated that it is still one hundred and eight thousand miles away from the truth! In fact, however, I am quite satisfied. Because I finally found a way to explain my abnormal psychology without sexual desire, which raised my thinking to a level where it can be mixed with the word philosophy.
Well, having said so much, I still let my mind drift back to the moment when I confessed, and it was also when the third grade of junior high school was approaching graduation. Following the vulgar graduation confession routine, I chose to go on the same path as Deng Yanan after the party. Then I confessed to her on a road with few people: “I’m sorry to say it, but I have always had a good impression of you, and I have always liked you, so…so…” I looked up at her, my face was flushed (I inferred from the heat), and said coyly.
Ah! What a frightening style, every man must be so nervous when he confesses for the first time in his life, or is this just my imagination?
“Is this a joke after graduation?” the girl said after a moment of silence.
“Of course not!” I couldn’t help raising my head higher so that I could see her face clearly.
“You don’t really like me, do you?” The girl still looked suspicious, “Is there something about me that you like?”
If you look at it from the facts, there is nothing about you that men like. Thinking of this in my heart, I still said loudly to this girl with a height of more than 2.5 meters and a strong physique: “No! I like everything about you!”
Okay, here’s a big disaster. The confession was indeed a success, but the series of consequences caused by this sentence are like a tornado after a butterfly flaps its wings, almost sweeping me into the sky and falling to pieces.
2.
Life is always shortened in memories. The first time I saw Deng Yanan was at the gate of the class I was studying on the day of freshman admission. Just because I met my classmates in elementary school and played with themLe, when he bumped into the class, he was bounced out by something.
“Sorry, are you okay?” With the female voice, a big hand stretched out, it was almost the size to wrap my entire hand. I was really frightened. I didn’t dare to stretch out my hand for a while, but just looked up. Perhaps it is more appropriate to look up here, because she is too tall, beyond the so-called common sense.
“It’s okay, it’s okay.” I stood up myself, and couldn’t help apologizing: “I’m sorry for bumping into you, I didn’t pay attention just now.”
“It stands to reason that I should apologize to you, you are so strange.” She looked unreasonable, and she was relieved after a moment. “My name is Deng Yanan, what’s your name?”
“Ling Zixuan.” I couldn’t help being led into this standard introduction to the first meeting.
“Oh, Zixuan.” She laughed, but it couldn’t be called sweet. There is no way, this world is so unfair, an ordinary face can never make a country fall in love with a smile, it should be said that it can’t even make a person fall in love. Deng Yanan is an extraordinary girl with such an ordinary face.
Why is it extraordinary? I am afraid that this question will appear most often in the conversations with people in our class who do not know her at the same school. Of course, the answer will not be her coveted figure among ordinary girls.
“It’s scary to say it, she is two meters tall!” Generally, people who are asked will say so in a pretentious way, and then wait for the surprised face of the other party.
“What! Is that still a woman?!” The other party was dumbfounded. Voila, that’s what they wanted.
It’s obviously not okay to judge whether a girl is feminine or not based on her height. However, Deng Yanan is a girl whose femininity cannot be found from the inside to the outside, really not even a little bit. She has nothing to do with the words quiet, gentle, and dignified, and it can be said that she doesn’t even have reservations. Indirect kissing with boys, ordinary physical contact, and underwear under the skirt will not make her feel shy.
As soon as she arrived in physical education class, she sweated all over her body, and part of the sweaty smell in the class was provided by her; she never shy away from hiccups, and the loud sound could only be made by a real man among real men. It’s just that I haven’t seen her fart. If she did, I’m afraid it would shock the whole class. I secretly imagined what kind of commotion would be caused by that huge butt for ordinary people.
Needless to say, no boy was interested in this two-meter-tall, burly girl, except me.
After a year of long-distance observation, I doubted whether Deng Yanan was gay, and had no interest in men at all. Later, this doubt was dispelled, it should be said that it was dispelled indirectly. Because I know that if there is no interest in that aspect, it will never elicit such a reaction.
That incident happened during the fire evacuation drill in the second grade of junior high school. Thanks to the crowd, I had a close contact with her. Evacuation drills are known to involve stairwells for a significant portion of the time, the more so the higher the floor. It just so happens that our class is located on the middle and high floors of the new teaching building, and congestion in the stairwell is inevitable. And at this time, there will always be a clear space behind Deng Yanan.Zone – Nobody wants to touch her ass with their upper body, especially not after gym class. Although she didn’t cause any problems in class