Perfect Sadomasochism

Author: enze
Word count: 74734
Chapter 1 My View
It is said that there are no parents who do not love their children. I do not agree with this statement. Everything has two sides. Just like there are good people, there must be bad people. Therefore, if there are parents who love their children, there will be parents who do not love their children.
My name is Tang Lin, and I am the one who is not loved by my parents.
From childhood to adulthood, my father and mother devoted all their attention to quarreling and completely ignored my existence.
I remember when I was young, I went out to play with them once, but the two of them quarreled again during the play, and then I didn’t care about me at all, and ended up getting lost by myself.
It wasn’t until more than ten hours later that they remembered this incident and went to the police station. The first thing they did when they found me was not to care about my situation, but to shirk responsibility from each other, and then they had another big fight in the police station.
Afterwards, after I became sensible, I have never been short of money except for money, and I have hardly received the love of my father and mother in my life.
This kind of life finally ended when I was sixteen years old. My parents divorced without asking for my opinion at all, and I was sentenced to be raised by my grandmother.
But regarding this incident, I didn’t feel sad at all, as if it was completely irrelevant to me.
Then my parents left, and after they left, they formed their own families. Except for the monthly living expenses of several thousand yuan paid to my card before I was eighteen years old, there was only one old house that was transferred under my name. A school district building worth several million in Nantah University Town, on the old street of Nantah University, has a total of four floors with a facade of more than 500 square meters.
I guess this house is also the reason why they haven’t visited me once in the past few years. They probably think that this old house can make up for all their debts to me.
In fact, in the final analysis, they didn’t owe me anything. They brought me into this world, and they didn’t lack my food and clothing. In my opinion, that was enough.
Children from families like mine have more or less personality flaws, some are reticent, some don’t get along with the crowd, and some have a tendency to destroy and so on.
As for me, I don’t seem to have any problems, and I usually behave normally, but sometimes I have all the problems mentioned above, maybe this is why I am abnormal.
And the real abnormality was when I was 16 years old, after I came into contact with SM on the Internet for the first time, I discovered that my biggest abnormality was that I was an out-and-out vibe, a masochist.
I am 21 this year. Over the years, I have been hiding my unknown side, trying to pretend to be a normal person.
Only on the Internet can I dare to truly let go of my other side, and can I have no scruplesShow another side of yourself to others.
But the more I suppressed it, the more this tendency of masochism became more and more serious. It was like a drug, constantly eroding my will and dragging me into the abyss.
Although I really don’t want to admit it, I know that I am a pervert, an out-and-out masochist, a monster that will never be tolerated by the world.
Until later, when I was a sophomore in high school, I first came into contact with the circle of SM players on the Internet. There, all women are S, and all men are M. Everyone plays their own roles and puts another side of themselves in front of others without any scruples.
That was the first time I knew that there were not a few people like me, and there were places like this on the Internet.
I can’t wait to join this game, even though it’s fake, just a network.
According to the rules in the circle, I posted my information and photos on the post bar, waiting for a female S to accept me as a “slave”.
During that period of time, quite a few girls approached me, and some of them were indeed very young and beautiful, and expressed that they wanted to take me as a slave. After getting to know them online for a period of time, I discovered that they were not the same as the SM concept in my mind.
I was very disappointed to find that they were all different from the concept of SM in my mind. I think SM is sadomasochism, and their SM is also pure abuse. I think in SM, love is more important than abuse, and SM is more about spiritual needs, not just physical pleasure.
Both S and M are not tolerated by the world, so we should tolerate each other and cherish each other, instead of turning it into a transaction like what is happening online now.
After I got in touch with it for a year, I finally felt disappointed. This is not the sadomasochism I wanted, so I don’t seem to have the need to stay.
In the end, I left my own views and understanding of SM on my post. I hope that someone can see it, and someone has the same idea as me. I am eager to be recognized.
After leaving this last post, I resolutely quit this so-called circle, not only because the college entrance examination is coming soon, but also because of the disappointment in my heart.
Time passed like this, and after experiencing that disappointment, it seems that I have become less loyal to sadomasochism.
I thought I would just slowly forget all of this and gradually become like a normal person.
However, God always likes to joke with you. A year and a half after I posted that post, I suddenly received a friend application on WeChat. It was a girl’s profile picture, and there was only one sentence in the application.
“I quite agree with your views on sadomasochism.”
It’s funny, it popped up again when I almost forgot about it myself.
theAfter I posted the post that year, I failed the college entrance examination, no wonder, I have always relied on self-consciousness in my studies